new year. same feelings. same shit.

2015. Finally a new year has arrived. What should I blog about today?

Hmm, actually I have so many things to talk about. But, well, there are still 363 days to go. Let's save them for the coming posts.

So, hello. New year, new me? Nah. I don't think there will be a new me. Hmmmmmmm. Okay.

A few questions to ask.
Do you love yourself?
Do you love people around you?
Do people around you love you?

If you do, and they too, congratulations. I hope you'll keep loving yourself, and people around you, and vice versa.

I wonder what it's like not to hate yourself, and people around you.

Because,
I,
hate,
people around me,
and myself, even more.
And I believe,
there are a lot of people who hate me too.

It sucks. Really. It's not even cool. And it makes me hate life. Makes me feel like i'm a fucking loser.

I really envy people who can love themselves. Who can love people around them. Who are loved by people around them. Who are happy.

Yes. Hating yourself makes you an unhappy person. Hating others takes away your happiness. People hating you? That's worse. It makes you feel like killing yourself. Makes you feel like you shouldn't exist. Makes you feel like it's a sin to be alive.

The worst part is, it makes you angry and sad all the time. Well, I'm not sure about everyone else, but in my case, this is what happens.

Talk about it to someone?
Hmm,
remember I hate people?
And people hate me?
Yeah that's why.
Besides,
I don't have friends.
And I don't really like to talk about these things, with my family.
I'm close with them,
but not close enough to talk about these things.


Maybe by writing in my blog would help. Or maybe not. Let's just see.

I guess that's all for this first post of mine in 2015.

A little advice: Go make 2015 a year worth remember. Get out of your comfort zone if you haven't already done so. And please love yourself, and people around you, especially your family. Always. See ya in the next post. Adios.