I've been thinking a lot.

I'm already in my third year here. I haven't found someone I can be my true self around. Nobody makes me feel home. Nobody understands me. Too many people trying to change me into something I don't wanna be. Too many people don't know how to respect my privacy and my preferences. Too many people think they are doing me a favour when they're just trying to make them feel better about themselves. So many people making decisions for me like my own thoughts are not important. They think they are right and everyone else who disagrees is wrong. They think I live my life wrongly. Who the hell are they to judge, I wonder. Isn't the most important thing is my attitude and personality? Their words and actions don't match at all. I'm tired. Tired of being told I'm supposed to live the way they live their life. I'm tired of being told I will be happy when I'm with them. I never once feel pure joy and happiness around them. Never. I don't think I belong there. How long, do l have to live this way?