I hope she is okay.

14th October 2019. Shocking news. Sulli, a kpop idol was found dead because of suicide.

The last time something like this happened, I was crying watching the funeral video, reading the last letter, and basically crying every time I read anything related to him. I barely knew him. Like I didn't follow him. I was not a fan of him. But I knew who he was.

I guess I'm easily triggered.

And when I read about her today. I almost cried again. But I stopped reading. I had to stop myself. It's really sad. I don't even know why I feel sad.

And then I thought of someone.

This someone is a fan of her. And the people around his and her circle. I'm assuming things but sometimes I get the feeling that she's depressed. Like sometimes she would not want to wake up. She just slept all day. Sometimes I think that her laziness was because of it. Sometimes I think that the reason she was barely doing well in her life was because of it. But I'm assuming things right now. She has gone through a lot. I never know the full story. But I know she had her own hard times.

I hate her sometimes. I hate the way she lives her life. She could have done so much better in life. She has so many potentials. I still don't get what went wrong. I never asked. She never said anything. It's so weird how we have been living for years together but we never really know each other. Not only her, even the person who gave birth to me. Even the person that has been feeding me my whole life. We know nothing about each other. It's almost like we are strangers. This is kinda off topic. So let's go back to my original point.

I hope she's okay. I hope the death will not trigger her in any way. I'm still assuming things. Maybe she's really doing good. Or I could be damn right. If I am right then I hope she is okay.