Who am I?

Did I already lose myself or have I not found myself yet? 

I have no idea.

I'm scared.

What if I become a loser and there is no turning back?

What if I turn into a loser permanently? 

I'm so ashamed of myself.

I'm a loser now.

Maybe I've always been a loser.

Maybe being a loser is my destiny.

Maybe a loser is just who I am.