Birthday.

My birthday is coming up so my family is busy asking what I want to eat and what cake do I want. I already told them it's fine to not have a cake but they insist, saying it's only once every year. 

I've always felt celebrating birthday is pointless. But it's also the only time our family act like a normal family. We would decide the food together, we would prepare the food together and we would have our dinner together on the same table. We only eat together on special occasions so I guess it is important after all. I still think celebrating birthday is pointless though. Eating together is fine. 

Yesterday, my father asked if I wanted to have prawns menu for my birthday. The day before, he announced that he would cook some steamed fish on my birthday. I honestly wish he wouldn't care that much about it. It's not that special, a birthday. And I feel bad being cared for when I did nothing for them. I'm not a good person.