movie night.

Hi.

I watched a movie for the first time in a long time. '20th Century Girl'. Whenever I watch shows about high school students, I can't help but think how lucky, how nice it is for them to live without much worries. How they can do whatever they want and get away with most things because they are still kids. I wanted to say, 'I wish I could stay as a kid forever.', but my childhood was not a great time to return to. I wish I could live in movies, as a teenager. An adult has way too many responsibilities. I'm tired of it. Or I could live as a billionaire in movies. 

Anyway watching the movie, it sparks the love hormones inside me. I find them cute and I wonder when will I get to experience that. And then I remember it's impossible for it to happen to me. Loving someone, and being loved. As a closet non-believer, it's safer for me to be alone. And maybe just live in my fantasy. I guess that is good enough. 

I should sleep now. Good night.