I will.

I'm sorry, father. I've disappointed you for many times.

I'm sorry, mother. I've not been good to you.

I wish we could go back to how we used to be. But, that's just,  impossible.

What should I do to make me feel less guilty? I feel like everything I do is only making my parents sad, angry, and disappointed.

They love me. I know they love me. They don't have to say it. Everything they do proves it.

And I love them too.

What I feel when I see them being happy is probably the best feeling ever.

But I rarely see them being happy. Being genuinely happy. Especially my father. And that's heartbreaking.

I want to make them happy.

I know that if I want to make them happy, I need to first stop being a burden to them. Stop causing trouble. Stop making them feel like they have the worst child.

And I need to be successful. I need to succeed in my studies. In my life. This needs to happen as soon as possible. I can't stand looking at how much I've disappointed them. How much I've hurt them. How unhappy they are.

They deserve to be happy. They're old now. They should be happy.

I don't want to end up like my sister or my brother. I'm going to prove that I'm different from them.

I will be a child my parents can be proud of. I will.