thanks for existing, soft spoken people.

I think this will be a positive one. Hopefully.

I'm just thinking... I really like soft spoken people. I've met soft spoken doctors, psychologist, cashier. They just make me feel good. Especially the doctors. I really appreciate them being kind and soft spoken. As someone who has anxiety, when someone is being grumpy or too strict that it feels like they're scolding me, it makes me think that something is wrong with me. Like I'm useless. I know it might just be their personality but I can't deal with that. I mean, I feel uncomfortable. I never think about this but now that I've experienced it, I just really appreciate soft spoken people. I'm thankful for them. Because I feel calmer listening to them. 

I know I said that I'm not looking for relationship or a partner. But if I were to choose a partner, I would definitely choose someone who is soft spoken. Someone who is calm. I need someone who is the opposite of me. Even if it's not a partner, I would like to have a friend who is soft spoken. I'm not saying my friends are not soft spoken but they're kinda like me. I really need someone who is a total opposite of me. Though I'm not sure if someone like that would want to be my friend. For now, I think I'll just try to get better first.