I want to be free.

Currently listening to this track that I discovered through a mobile game I just downloaded today. It's a pretty emotional track... https://spotify.link/TpvaYXDPczb

I couldn't find a picture to attach to this post. This is the best that I could find.

The track I listen to, it's not exactly a sad track, but I cry because it reminds me of how shitty my life is. I've forgotten what a crappy life I have. I live my life like I'm content with it. Like there's nothing wrong with it. This track helps me to snap out of my delusion. It reminds me of who I am. It reminds me of how far I am from the kind of life I truly want to lead. It reminds me of the fantasy I long for. The perfect life. 

This track can be the ending credit of a coming-of-age movie, where the main character is finally free, where she can do whatever she wants without caring about other people. A main character that is free from her past and only has a bright future ahead. That is what I long for. I want that perfect life.

I imagine myself going on a very long trip on my own, somewhere I can safely be my own person. Maybe I would even stop by at one of the places I visit, and try to live like the locals. Be my completely true self. I long for a life where I don't have to be a slave to money. I long for a life where I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not, or hiding my real self. I long for a life where I am free. 

Right now, I feel trapped. I am drown in my anger and hatred. I am in hell. I want to be free.