One step closer to getting over someone.

Being in love is so humiliating. Maybe that's why I'm still single.

I came across an article on how to get over someone you see every day. Those tips were common sense, but it didn't mean they were easy to be applied. 

For now I've tried minimizing my interactions with him. So far so good. I can't avoid it if he talks to me first, but I can avoid talking to him first and talking about him. When I deliberately avoid him and he seems to ignore me as well, I feel hurt. But that's part of the process to get over him. I have to get through it.

Another tips that I read was to admit my feelings. I keep denying my feelings for him. Maybe that's why it's hard to move on. So yes I think I do like him. Though I believe I only like the idea of him. Because how else can I explain liking someone I don't know?

And now I should list down the things that I don't like about him. For starter, he's just not my type. I have a type. They all look similar. Puppy-like. 

See? These are the kind of faces that I love. Physically he is nothing like them. I never pay attention to his outer appearance especially his face. I think I use my imagination a lot when it comes to his face. He actually looks okay. Not as cute as these people I love. I know physical appearance is not everything. I'm not even pretty myself. But my potential partner should look at least half as cute as my celebrity crushes. Therefore, he's not it. He's disqualified.

And of course besides physical appearance, personality is important as well. I need to remind myself how he defended someone I dislike, how he said things which implied he's trying to use me, how he passionately complained  about something that I did, how he tried to pressure me to get something done. All of the things that he did, I need to remind myself of them. Those things did not leave me with a pleasant feeling. I was angry and hated him for what he did. I will forever be reminded of those things. I don't forgive easily. I hold grudges.

And lastly, like what I mentioned before, we just don't share the same belief. When he asked me about the origin of my name, it was already a turn-off for me. We're not even close and he gave me a lesson on my name's origin and how I should live up to my name. Who the fuck he think he is? 

Yeah listing down all these reasons not to like him might be helpful for me to get over him. Whenever I feel jealous over people pairing him up with some girl, whenever I feel offended or hurt because he ignores me, I'm gonna look at what I've written here. Or whenever I feel like I'm getting butterflies while interacting with him, I should read this. He's not right for me. And I've got way more important things to focus on. I need to stay sane to survive. I'll get through this.